Keep on dancing till the world ends.
18 Aug 2011 Leave a Comment
Listening to IU’s rendition of Toy’s ‘Good Person’.
This space is so neglected I know, I’m starting to find it hard to turn my thoughts into words.
I’ve been so depressed lately, especially so when school is starting soon. Time flies, I really can’t believe 8 months of holidays went passed just like that. Trying hard to recall what exactly have I done over these months, and I can’t help but feel sad for myself. I just feel like I wasted a whole lot of time doing nothing productive.
Yes, school’s starting soon, but I don’t look forward to it like how I used to during my secondary school/jc days. Should I really be thankful that at least I have a University to go to? Everyone’s going University to work hard for their Degree with their future career plan in mind, but not me. I’m entering one because I have no choice. You don’t understand.
Everyone’s moving on fine, attending schools, making new friends, adapting to a brand new environment, staying in halls, having great fun. But me? I’m not, or maybe I don’t want to. I just want to stay here like things how used to be.
Everyone’s changing. And that makes me feel like nothing. I feel like if one day I stop speaking/contacting people, they will slowly forget me. They probably won’t even feel my absence.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me, I don’t even know why I’m crying while typing all this crap that don’t even make sense.
“Even people I’ve known for so long soon become strangers to me. People change and grow tired of having you in their life. I’m my own best friend. It’s sad, but it is what it is.” – Megan Fox
It’s harsh, but I think I’m slowly starting to be able to relate to it.
Farewell.
22 Jun 2011 Leave a Comment
I realized I don’t blog as much as I used to, not like anyone reads what I post on here haha. This post is gonna be about my work again, end of work that is.
So, last Friday marks the end of my 2 & 1/2 months short stay in HSBC, it was a mix of feelings actually. I guess I’m glad because it’s finally liberation! A little upset because we always have to leave when we just got closer to the rest, but that ain’t a problem cause I know we will still be seeing each other quite often, be it in school or meet-ups! The only thing that bothers me is the fact that I chose not to extend my contract when I was given the chance to, I still have around 2 months before the start of school and finding another office job now will be ermmm, weird?
People are asking me to chill and enjoy my last 2 months of break, but I feel that I’m pretty short of cash even though I don’t really spend that much! But that’s just because I have a lot of things in mind that I wanna do, and taking up dance lessons is one of my priorities now. (Plus, you need a lot of money for University)
That aside, I’m really glad that I was able to join HSBC even for that short period of time because the experiences were awesome. I know I complained a fair bit at the very beginning because of this and that but life was pretty good! Not forgetting the awesome colleagues I’ve known! (:
Constance! My very weird friend who gets shocks like most of the time, laughs at almost every joke I made (even when they aren’t that funny haha!), craps with me during work, and is always the one who can’t finish her food! (but still insist that shes has a huge appetite, liar!) Oh and yes, only this weirdo will go grab snacks with me from the pantry everyday after 4pm haha. (:
Apple! My vegetarian colleague who made me fall in love with the vegetarian food they sell here @ MBC, awwww missing those food right now! ): She’s such a sweet colleague, always giving advices like a big sis and reminding me to start caring for my hair and skin now. (vainpots haha)
Melvin! The only guy in our campaign team and the odd one out cause his name doesn’t start with a D! Hmmm he’s friendly (always mixing around and eating lunch with different people, thus ps-ing us), scandalous (HEHE), OT king, sings quite well for a guy, a good cook (the brownie he baked was awesome, I know he loves cooking, he even goes on to amazon and buy good knives online!), yeah pretty much sums up what I know about him haha.
Louisa! I remembered when I first met her, she wasn’t in a good mood, probably because of lack of sleep (it was funny to see her falling asleep while she work HAHA), and plus I ain’t good at words with strangers so we literally didn’t talk much at all. It was until one day when I realized she likes kpop as well that we finally started talking to each other, and then we just hit it off haha! She’s this sweet girl who’s always talking about her 5 ‘husbands’ (yada yada we know who haha), talks and laughs SUPER LOUD when she gets too high, and whenever she’s tired, restless or annoyed over work, she will just plug in her earpiece and do her own stuffs. Oh yes, she’s very very lame too haha! (even when she insists that she’s not!) (:
Qian Ying, my dearest! (: Spent my first day of work learning basics from her and we didn’t really interact much after that. It was when she switched seats with another colleague and sat beside me that we started talking and knowing each other. Then somehow we got closer and she will share her ‘juicy’ stories with us haha. She’s another person who talks SUPER LOUD at times haha, can’t really decide who’s louder but anyway, a very bubbly girl and a sotong like what the rest would call her. And in case you don’t know, she’s the first colleague whom I stay up late at night to make a birthday card for!
Last but not least,
Jiaxing! My mentor, someone I’m really grateful towards. If it’s not for him, I would be clueless about what to do at work. Thanks to him, Constance and I were able to survive through the last few weeks of work because he would try to find stuffs for us to do to keep us occupied. I really thank him for his patience in training us and always trying to make us feel comfortable at work. Other than that, he’s a joke haha. He will always be known as the person who eats this awesome chinese mixed rice from Burp! (a food court at my workplace), forever asking me if I’m eating that for lunch too haha! The only one who calls me a glutton (okay I do admit I’m one), has very unique laughter, likes to tease people in an unusual way and always pronouncing ‘permanent’ as ‘pernament’, haha opps! 
There, the most awesome 4-in-1 team and the usual place we always have lunch at! We are ABC-meow if you haven’t already know hehe! I really had loads of fun working with you guys, keep in touch! <3
And of course there are other colleagues like Ben who’s a total joker, how can someone be so funny!? And Eric, whom has a ‘secret’ that almost all of us should have known by now? It’s really funny because he doesn’t want anyone to find out, yet he made it so obvious and talks loud about it!
A thank you card for our awesome supervisor. I rant about her to my family sometimes because I used to have prejudices against female supervisors, especially young ones. But that was just the beginning, she proved me wrong towards the end. (:
This is so cute! It’s actually our company’s signature verification stamp haha. (:
Yes, I’m gonna miss everything about work (except for a few of those colleagues that you just feel like pulling their hair off, and the stupid photocopy machines that always run out of papers!)
I’m already too used to an open concept office like this.
Awesome view.
Goodbye MBC, it’s the most awesome environment I’ve ever worked at!
The awesome team!
I guess this pretty much sums up my life @ hsbc, what’s left ahead is 2 months of freedom! Thks fr th mmrs! (:
(Most of the photos belong to Melvin, I hope he doesn’t mind me koping them hehe :$)
Timeless.
17 Apr 2011 Leave a Comment
It’s been more than a week since I joined HSBC as a temp admin assistant, and other than being late for nearly an hour on my first day of work and spending most of my time there staring at my phone and doing nothing (because my project starts like, tomorrow), life is fine.
I’m starting to get used to the environment, my colleagues and slowly getting the hang of how things work in there. But frankly speaking, the colleagues at Aviva are much much better, all of us just clicked so well, lunch times were never awkward because we had so much stuffs to talk about, so many people to gossip on, and so many things to joke about. Because of them, I looked forward to work every single day (except for days when I really felt like just missing work and sleeping in. 
)
I don’t even consider this bunch of people my colleagues anymore, they are, my friends. Friday we had a mini gathering at Mind’s Cafe after work and it was pretty awesome, can’t believe everyone still look the same! I think I should drag some of my friends there one day if we decide to have a gathering or something because it’s so affordable! That night we had a main course, free flow of drinks, a dessert and 5 hours of board-gaming for just $18.50! Man, I miss the food there already haha, the crispy chicken cutlet was sooooooo good! Not forgetting, we had so much fun there. (:
Afterwards, we walked around Marina Bay and Ravi drove us home. I’m really sorry he had to drive around in circles (yes, AT YISHUN HAHA) because I couldn’t recall the direction back home. I really suck at directions haha, so even if I get a driving license, it will be useless. :$
I’m gonna organize more meet-ups because Ravi is leaving for Australia in mid-July. AND CAMERA! Forgot to bring mine out that night, sobs. ):
Anyway, back to the point, I really hope I can bond well with my new colleagues, at least for the 3 months that I’m gonna spend here. Things are smooth-sailing though, because at least we girls have topics in common that we can chat on. One thing to really pick on is the attitude of some people, don’t look down on people, don’t vent your anger on someone just because you’re feeling moody, don’t push the blames to someone else when you know you are at fault, and please be responsible and know what you have to do because, that’s why they hired you in the first place.
PEACE. (:
Stuck in mind.
22 Feb 2011 Leave a Comment
I wish I could convince myself with that.
Okay, I need to find a calm night to really sit down and write a decent post, because it has been eons since I last did that. I have a lot to say in mind, but it’s really hard to put it across in words.
Can’t believe I’m actually flying off to Taiwan in like 4 days time. And there’s so many things to do, pack luggages, familiarize myself with my camera’s functions and such, list down the things to buy, and farewell gifts/cards for my dearest colleagues.
Yes, Friday’s officially my last day in Aviva.
But I’m feeling kinda, ironic?
This is reality.
21 Jan 2011 Leave a Comment
Life just keeps getting better (minus the little stuffs I’m gonna rant about below). (:
I can’t believe how miraculously close me and my colleagues have become over the past few weeks. We had lunch together everyday, waking up so damn early on Friday mornings just to have McDonald’s breakfast together (IM NOT LATE TODAY AND I WAS THE FIRST TO REACH! HEHE.), we even plan to go play laser quest together!
Going Timbre next Friday, kind of like a farewell party for Ida and Marianne. This is so depressing because they are leaving soon! ): I really hate goodbyes, who doesn’t, right?
These awesome colleagues are probably the top reason why I’m still staying in Aviva. Frankly speaking, it’s not a place you would like to stay for long, because as the days pass, ugly truths unfold, you get to see the worst side of people, and the staffs will start to treat you differently because you are no longer a ‘newbie’. I hate dealing with politics, and whenever I see people pushing blames to one another just because they don’t wanna get involved/scolded, it turns me off, totally.
Seriously, what are you afraid of? Everyone makes mistakes, and it’s OKAY. If you made one, just own up and move on. Why try so hard to drag the rest down? YOU AIN’T A KID ANYMORE, SO GROW UP, TO GET SCOLDED FOR A MISTAKE IS NOT A BIG DEAL.
I’m really disgusted by how people try to make it sound like they are not at fault.
Next is the thing about my supervisor, I hate it when she ask questions that you can never give a sounding answer to. I hate it even more when all she does is empty talks. It’s like yes, I got what you are trying to tell me, so stop repeating and provide us with some kind of solutions, please? I’m just doing what you told me to, what more do you expect from me?
I don’t like the feeling of being used.
And in case you misunderstood me, I do like my job, in fact I enjoy doing what I’m doing now, it’s just some staffs in the office that annoys me the most.
That’s it, I’m just gonna extend one more month. When the rest are gone, I shall leave too.
On a lighter note, I’m meeting my girls tomorrow, like finally! Miss them so much, all the craps and laughters haha. (:
CHINESE NEW YEAR IS COMING!!!
Can’t be erased.
10 Jan 2011 Leave a Comment
I love their ballad, I’ve been replaying it for the nth time today!
Miss my twin, and the beans, PLEASE COME BACK FROM HK/KOREA SOON! ):
/It rained the whole day today, I plugged in to my music player, listened to a particular song, and thought about you again.
2011.
10 Jan 2011 Leave a Comment
in Uncategorized Tags: new year, personal
I’m finally blogging again! (Took me so long, I know.)
A new year, new space, new chapter of my life.
And so, ever since A levels ended, I’ve been enjoying my holidays, going on a family trip which we haven’t done for eight years, catching up with friends, spending money on food and shopping, and closely planning for my long-awaited Taiwan trip! Of course, I found myself a decent temporary job at Aviva, though the pay is not very high, the work is mundane, the travel fares are HORRIBLE, but I enjoy ever single bit of it, because I got to meet a really nice and fun-loving bunch of colleagues, who made my days a lot more bearable.
Frankly speaking, I wasn’t really expecting anything like this. I thought the staffs will be nasty to me and scold me if I make mistakes, but lucky for me, it’s the complete opposite. I learnt many new things, and I never thought that I would be able to click with my colleagues so well. I really like them a lot! But on the flip side, I would probably miss everything and everyone there when my contract ends, you know, the power of emotional attachment.
How bout life after that? Honestly, I don’t even want to think about that.
Getting back results in 2 months’ time, then I’ll have to fret over which university to go to, which course to take, and if my results are terrible, I may end up nowhere. This, is such a nightmare.
Everyone has been saying how much they miss studying and stuffs like that, seriously, are you kidding me? Do you really like waking up early in the morning for school, feel like a zombie, trying so hard to stay awake during boring lectures/tutorials, staying back for extra lessons, going home with tons of work to complete, staying late till wee hours and see the whole routine repeats itself again?
No, I don’t think so. I don’t miss solving maths problems, I don’t miss reading long case studies and answering Econs essay questions, I don’t miss trying so hard just to pass that GP essay and I definitely don’t miss anything about Chemistry (and my disgusting chem tutor). Other than my friends, my cca, my days as an OGL, I’m sorry, I don’t miss school at all.
I love my life the way it is now, I’m contented, and I’m definitely MOVING ON.
Other than the wait for release of results and university admission, I have other things in mind that I wanna accomplish in this new year.
One of which is singing. I’m not sure if anybody had any idea how much I love music, but I’m gonna tell you now, music is like an inevitable part of me. I really love singing, and I’ve never passed a day without singing. In my room, in the bathroom, in the karaoke room, with my friends, in the lift alone. (Crazy i know!)
I used to be this little girl who will lie on the bed picturing myself singing on stage, and then I’ll start singing to myself, so softly because I’m afraid of being heard by my family. But then when we get older, we start to have bigger ambitions, and we want more. I really envied those aspiring teens who aren’t afraid to show people what they’ve got. I found myself really useless, because I didn’t have the guts to take the first step out to reach for my dreams.
Not anymore. This time, I’m gonna start believing in myself. I’m gonna start trying out for auditions, as many as I can.
I know people out there will think that I’m being unrealistic, but hey, what’s wrong with pursuing your dream, there’s nothing to lose, right?
All I know is I got to try and make it happen. That’s how much I love music, and I don’t want it to remain forever a hobby/interest.
This is probably my biggest resolution for 2011. What’s yours? (:
